I’m still in great pain from my breakup with Mr. A.
I went on SA again for the distraction and began texting with a man I’ll call Mr. Deputy (or maybe just Dep? Mr. D?). I recall my reasoning for naming Mr. A was that he reminded me of Mr. Big from Sex and the City with his chic bachelor lifestyle and job in finance and his worldliness.
Well, I’m dubbing this new guy Mr. Deputy because he’s totally second in command. He’s a giver at heart and we bonded over both being heartbroken from our losses. He lets me lead everything, the conversation, where we go, etc. This is such a blatant difference from my experience with Mr. A — honestly refreshing, but definitely doesn’t make me sexually attracted to him. I prefer strong dominants that will tell me what to do like Mr. A. But hey, at least I’m gaining some control in my life.
Mr. Dep recently had a girl (from SA) leave him after almost three years of living together. He’s still getting himself back together from the loss. And I, too, am in mourning of my relationship with Mr. A. So, we have been able to rely on each other, to listen to one another, and to help each other get through this rough time.
I haven’t yet made it through a day without thinking of Mr. A and our life together without crying. Because if I stop distracting myself for even just a minute, it all comes rushing to the pit of my stomach and my heart burns and my eyes swell up with tears. I know it’s for the best because it was the most fruitless of SB/SD relationships. But I believe it was real.
Although Mr. Deputy may not fill Mr. A‘s shoes in regards to looks, charm, and class, he has definitely made up for it with his generosity and kindness. I’ve known the man three days and seen him twice. He’s already given me a month’s worth of money, upwards of $3000. Talk about a rebound.
Any advice on what you’ve done to get over a fresh wound or breakup is appreciated.
xoxo, ♥ E